People who don’t really know me look at me and see a person I don’t recognize. My friends look at me and see the person they believe I am. I look at myself in the mirror and see one person on good days and another one on bad days. I try and project an image of myself for others to see that is the person I’d like to be. And then I look inside searching for the person that I feel I am.
As part of growing up, we all learn to show certain parts of ourselves to others. Depending on the different cultures, we are taught to show some parts or others.
But we also learn to perceive others following similar patterns.
There comes a moment when we don’t really know who the real person is and who the projected ones are.
And then there’s the issue of the real me buried under all those images projected, perceived, imagined and proposed. Who am I? I close my eyes and look for myself inside. I think I feel something there. I might even perceive my essence. But then, who am I, the one perceiving the self or the self that’s being perceived?
I look for answers outside and inside, alone and with friends. Who is the real me? What am I here for? What do I really want? What do I want others to see in me? Can I really project what I want? Can I reach others and can they truly see the real me?
I look for myself in the mirror but, do I really see ME? It’s hard. I focus on certain aspects, I can’t seem to be able to grasp the whole ME.
I ask my loved ones. Who am I? But their answers are as varied as themselves.
And then I feel lost. I don’t really know who I am and that causes an unbearable insecurity in me. I doubt every decision, each step, all my utterances. Which one is talking?
The Journey to Yourself is a journey I began years ago. Step by step, I learned, unlearned, advanced and grew, discovered and unveiled. Journey to Yourself is the journey of all journeys, the journey that explains and gives meaning, even when not fully completed. Each new milestone reached in the Journey to Yourself opens new doors and expands our worldview to allow us new perspectives and understandings.
It is my personal belief that all human beings sooner or later embark on their own Journey to Yourself. It’s part of our humanity. Many travel their journeys alone. Others seek guidance and help. What really matters is to keep on going, no matter how fast.
Enjoy life, ALL of it,
Jessica J. Lockhart, humanology